walk, don't run.

There’s a thin line between jealousy and insecurity.

Is there really jealousy when you go around having your heart broken once, twice, thrice, when the truth is -as blatant as it is- it’s not about the picture that you’re looking at, nor about the two people cuddling in it, and it’s really not even about him, her, them, ain’t nobody at all. It’s just you.

It’s just you feeling sorry whenever seeing every other person being with somebody else, it’s just you feeling bad about yourself whenever their relationships are just perfectly fine, it’s just you not feeling happy for them cos you long for what they have, that you don’t, that you’ll probably won’t. And it’s just you regretting every goddamn single minute in your life, wishing that you were just a wee bit better in every way you are, every way you do and every way you live. And it’s just about you, if you think about it.

So why go around falling for people too much too fast, just to be around having your heart broken once, twice, thrice? When the truth is, it’s not about them not reciprocating, not even about the relationships that just can’t work themselves out. It’s only about you being not ready for one.

When you’re not ready, you’re not falling the right way. When you’re not falling the right way, you’re not aching the right way either. That so called jealousy of yours, it really is just insecurity. There’s no way of romancing your way out when it’s all mechanical, not chemical. Or better yet, don’t go around talking yourself into liking somebody an awful lot, when you’re not even ready when it comes to rejection.

There’s a thin line between jealousy and insecurity. But then again, there’s a fine line between being ready and being insecure.
So walk, don't run.