There comes a time when we long for reasons and answers to our situation. Seems like everything has to have a reason underneath, but I tell you, sometimes nothing ever has.

We may find things unfair to us, but we’ve got to accept in the end, it’s the way it is. Whether it’s a parent having a favorite child among all his children or the missing supports from people around that you then never have. Well, I think it’s commonly seen in every family, parents unconsciously have their favorites. It's something small yet you can see it. You know, they smile a little brighter when one of you walks in the room, or laugh a little louder when one of you tells a joke. Sometimes, it hurts when you think you finally get to be the favorite cos they pay more attention to you than usual, but then you realize that it’s just to get their favorite jealous cos apparently they’re just having a fight. Well, it happens, but perhaps they’re not evil, cos it’s just natural.

Ironically, you can be so damn stupid not to realize that there’s actually someone who loves you, but you’re just too busy longing for the love from others that you’ll never have and end up being a jerk. You could be such an asshole taking his love for granted, being harsh or even deluding him into doing something. Well, I realize that it’s just how it is. No matter that you’re the worst in all other people’s eyes, you’re a beauty in his, or no matter how hardly you ever reciprocate the compassion, it’s always there abundantly flowing to you.

Ashamed of being insensitive and ungrateful, trying to care less and focus only on what’s sincerely catered.