happier this way

Waiting. I’m sick of waiting. Waiting is the worst damn thing.

Admitting. Some people find it hard to admit to making mistakes, I was one. Biggest mistake of my life, I think I’d made it. The problem was solely denial, the tendency of exonerating oneself, the manipulation of the extenuating circumstances. I’d very well come to terms with this kind of thing. My bad.

Revelation. Knowing someone for six years and having a strong impression for like the whole time don’t make you know someone inside out. Apparently, a nice talk during lunch and an one hour pool playing are long enough to distort all the perspectives, wiping out the stereotype.
Well, you think you know someone, I think it’s just the beginning of either the sweet or the grim reality.

Negativity. When someone turns out to be nice, as human beings with absolute leaning to suspicions and bias, we’ll surely speculate and doubt the perfection of others, delving the imperfections and building up layers of what’s so called worst case scenario. Whereas if it turns out that someone is ‘bad’, we tend to believe right away.
Am I right? Or is it not?

Bewilderment. Can someone tell what’s the most definite good or definite bad thing happening around? Really, can we be so sure to point at something/someone and tell? One’s bad bcos of doing things for good, and one’s good bcos of proving others wrong, whether or not one wants to. We hate someone, yet we love him. We never can be so sure, and that’s why we’re always in between.

Pessimism.
“I believe in the theory of pessimism. That way, I won’t be much disappointed by setting my expectations high,” he said.
“I see you never realize how much you’ve been disappointing as a father, having never believed in your kids when they need it the most.” I replied, only never spoken.

Sometimes, even if there seems to be nothing as much of a promising result, you get to believe your kids anyway. That’s what people call ‘support’.

Truth. You’re not affected by the truth unless it’s on your doorstep. Having it revealed is where everything seems real to you. Symptoms are as follows: cold feet, shortness of breath, narrowing of the throat, and pretty much blurred vision. =P

However, some people choose to be indifferent of the truth instead of dealing with it. It occurs to me that people are ignorant for good, cos life indeed is a beauty show, and showing only the good parts of it is what people are good at. We choose what’s wanted to be seen, and the rest, we can act it out.

Behind those ignorant façades are total awareness and the right choice of life. People are at times happier this way.