Have you ever stopped and thought "hey, maybe it's just me" in the middle of worrying for the zillionth time whether your hair looks nice, your teeth shine enough or making sure that you've never worn the same shirt before when meeting him/her. Well, maybe each of us has gone through this kind of thing, where moments before meeting someone that we like turns us into this self-absorbed, self-concerned and self-seeking bitch. =P o well.. it’s like the world revolves only around us and everything happens for, and bcos of us. Unfortunately, truth is that more often than not, we’re not even at that plain sight on his eyes like on ours. What’s worse is that we have this kind of thought where everything about that person who we like is good, heaven-sent, etc whereas when it comes to us, flaws are all we see.
Okay, that’s speaking of a worse case. Let’s just take a step behind. Even worrying too much about our appearance itself is sometimes a lop-sided, time-consuming thing. What if that person doesn’t even care what we wear yesterday, today and tomorrow? What if he doesn’t even realize that we’ve worn the same shirt two days in a row? Or, if there’s spinach hanging on your front teeth? O well, that everyone can see, even 3 meters away. Hehehe.. Well, perhaps that’s a theory to test. So, I’ve been thinking. While worrying and making sure our appearance and being not privy to whether or not he cares as much as we do, why not take a chance to just be yourself, wear whatever it is you feel comfortable in when meeting him, even on your worst-hair day ever? O well, maybe it’s a little extreme, but maybe that way, we get to save some time instead of spending too much worrying and combing our hair in front of a mirror or better yet, if that person happens to be not that into us, we won’t feel the disappointment as much as it is or even to some extent, hurt maybe. Or maybe, if you’re lucky enough, he’ll say, “hey, isn’t that shirt the one you’re wearing on Thursday?” That way, you might feel ashamed, but you get to know that he notices anyway. Haha..
So, next time or maybe tomorrow, when you start to spend some unusual hell long time in front of a mirror or your wardrobe, give yourself a minute and hit the button pause and think “maybe it’s just me” then pick a shirt and have yourself out that door. After all, it’s all conceptual, which sometimes needs to be proven.
But any how, we gotta admit that no matter what, liking or falling for someone and having the palpitation and billions of one-sided assumptions have its own trick played on us. It’s where we feel happy and so unusual, where at times, translated into ‘more alive’ cos after all, we need it. That’s why people call it “hours in front of a mirror” or “buying tens of new clothes, returnable or non returnable” and that’s why we all always happily wage love. Well, perhaps it’s just a phase, perhaps it’s not. But we need it to keep us alive and distracted, according to what I read several days ago.
So yea, it’s either to save your time and verify the conceptual not-yet-proven assumptions, or to wait some time/maybe forever but get to distract yourself with the sweet days of starting seeing someone.
O well.. I always have these pros and cons humming in the back of my mind. =P
Anyway, guess what I’m listening to. It’s savage garden, first album, 1997, cassette and not CD.=P Feel like listening to them and I tell you, it feels good. I always like them. to the moon and back, truly madly deeply, tears of pearls, universe, Santa Monica.. Feels like getting back into time.
cao
In a way, we’re the same two people looking out to sea. For a wave that would carry all our fantasies.
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Good post.
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