too bad it's quite true

I juz cant picture myself half a year from now, nor the place n the language. After all, who knows just what imminent things coming our way, rite?

Now that was what I wrote on new year’s eve.
I’m waiting for dinner which is still 45 minutes to go, so I just thought of reading some old entries to keep my mind off the fried rice downstairs. As I was reading last year’s, I came across that sentence and I thought to myself, “damn right.”

Somehow, I just sensed that I was feeling real excited in the entry. So optimistic for a change I even added a “happy new year’s eve everyone!” at the bottom of the entry, all in capitals and bold, meaning I was shouting it out all proud and loud. Happy as a pup with two tails.

Maybe through the last half a year, I’ve lost the same energy. I’m not as proud as I was walking toward the next half. Maybe I just wrote the sentence and didn’t mean it. Maybe I was just saying it along with a certain tacit expectation, flickering with hope. It’s just that only now I can really mean it should I write it once more. Who knows that I actually understand what I wrote just 10 months after?